ICDS: Chapter 241

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Chapter 241. What Happened Twice Will… (1)


Lin immediately headed off to work on the rewards. Since the accessories weren’t something that he could make in a day or two, Daisy and I had to give up on seeing them for a while.

For the record, although Sipua had committed grave sins of escaping the dungeon and cooperating with a world’s enemy, considering the situation, she was simply given a punishment of 500 years in confinement. When she heard the punishment, she looked at me with longing eyes, but I just ignored them. It seemed it would be an effective punishment.

“Let’s go back, Daisy.”

“Un… Aren’t you reproducing?”

“Am I a bacteria!?”

“Shin-nim, I’ll see you in a bit!”

“You, don’t ever come…”

We left Fairy Garden and returned to the guild house. The guild members, who had been waiting for us to return, felt relieved when the dungeon started operating again, and asked us what had happened. However, as it was too dark to tell them, I gave an evasive answer. Not knowing the truth wouldn’t hurt them anyways.

“Whew, it’s finally over… What’s your plan, Daisy?”

“I’m going to, sleep.”

Daisy yawned. Now that she mentioned it, I hadn’t slept a wink. Just when I was thinking about going to sleep too, Daisy took off her beret in the middle of the hallway, then threw off her coat. Then, she suddenly tilted her head and asked.

“Sleep together?”

“No! And if you’re going to undress any more, do it in your room!”

“You wanted to sleep…”

“But not with you!”

“… Are you going to sleep, with that elf queen?”

“Don’t say that even if you’re joking! Do you know how scared I was!? I’m going to sleep alone, a.l.o.n.e.!”

Although I was exhausted, this whole incident had only taken a day’s worth of time. Other than the fact that Revival had become an A ranked guild, nothing had changed from the day before. Earth was still peaceful, and neither the four remaining kings nor the demon race had appeared.

Since I didn’t want to go back to the dungeon and fight, I decided to just sleep.

I had used Overlord and Hermes’ power… It seemed my body was waiting for a rest after a severe physical labor. After I took a shower, I went to my room in the guild house and fell on my bed like someone who had just finished a marathon. Then, I fell asleep. It felt warm.

When I woke up, Ina was sleeping next to me.

“… Eh?”

When I sat up, Ina mumbled softly. I patted her and kept her sleeping. But why was Ina in my room? I didn’t need to think for long as I could clearly see the door I had left wide open.

“Thank god it’s Ina…”

I murmured instinctively and trembled. It seemed the trauma wouldn’t go away for a while. I got down from the bed and got changed. I looked at the clock. It seemed I had been sleeping for 15 hours straight. Considering the fact that I usually only needed 3 hours of sleep, it was a surprising amount.

“Mm, I might as well go to the dungeon now.”

That was the only way I knew how to spend my free time! Despairing at my battle-ridden lifestyle, I left the room. When I closed the door silently so that Ina could sleep peacefully, Daisy was standing in the hallway.

“Whoa!”

Daisy stared at me fixedly.

“You said you would, sleep alone. But you slept, with another woman.”

“Ina’s my daughter!”

“… Will the daughter, also think that?”

“Of course!”

Since Daisy was the one saying it, I couldn’t help but worry slightly… No, she was just trying to tease me! As if to prove that this was the case, the corner of Daisy’s mouth curled up.

“Kidding. I didn’t read, her thoughts.”

“If possible, don’t make jokes that are going to give me heart attacks…”

“There is something, I want to say.”

I noticed that Daisy was wearing her formal battle attire which she took off when she went to bed. When she wasn’t going out for battle, she usually wore loose clothes that made the guild’s male members glance at her, so her current attire somewhat stood out.

“You kept your promise, very quickly. So from now on, I will work, for Kang Shin. I will pay back, this gratitude.”

“That’s it…? You did your best ever since you entered the guild. Like you did in the Philippines, for example.”

However, Daisy shook her head and spoke.

“What Kang Shin is doing, I want to do it too.”

“… Hm?”

“What Kang Shin plans on doing, I will do as well.”

“Ah.”

I barely understood what she was trying to say. She had seen through my plan.

“Your goal, I like it. So let’s do it, together.”

“I’m the one who came up with it… But it’s going to take a long time.”

“Un. Let’s do it, together.”

“As you know, the motive isn’t pure either…”

I scratched my head, and Daisy tilted her head in response.

“Motive doesn’t matter. Let’s do it, together.”

“I don’t really understand you… but for now, let’s focus on Earth. We have plenty of time to talk about this.”

“Un. I just wanted to, say it early. I wanted to become, your first ally.”

With that, Daisy smiled lightly. Her waning eyes looked beautiful and her smile also brought a smile on my face. I felt like I had obtained an unexpected, but reliable friend.

“So, do we sleep together, now?”

“No!”

“You sleep with your daughter, but not your ally?”

“You just wanted to tease me, right!?”

After that, I chased away Daisy who started taking her clothes off to go to bed, then returned to Earth. Now that I thought about it, I had to face Beyond’s 20th Floor Master now. Since it hasn’t been a day since I used Overlord, I was a bit hesitant to fight him. Just thinking about a monster that was a mix of Dullahans and Grim Reapers made my stomach churn.

In addition, I realized that I had not seen my family since I came back from the Sylon continent. Mother was complaining recently about never being able to see her son’s face, so I planned on using this opportunity to show my face more.

“Ah, Shin…”

“Ludia.”

The first one I met after coming home was Ludia. The scene of her in her white priestess robe vacuuming the floor was a bit ironic. The fact that she looked so used to it was also a bit sad.

“I thought you were going to come back home immediately. Did you end up going to the dungeon?”

“No, I just crashed in the guild house.”

“After making me worry to death, really…”

“Sorry.”

I didn’t try to make any excuses. Ludia snorted at my honest apology and went back to vacuuming the floor. As she moved the vacuum cleaner forward and backward with as much skill as my mother, she murmured in a voice that barely went through the vacuum noise.

“It’s fine as long as you’re safe…”

“Thanks for worrying about me.”

“That’s all I can do for you, always.”

Her voice carried a self-deprecating tone.

“Ever since I met you, there hasn’t been a day I haven’t thought about you. You’re really annoying.”

“You were annoying too when we first…”

I quickly dodged a vacuum cleaner swinging at my face. Ludia spoke as she glared.

“How you hate losing an inch annoys me too.”

“I’m just saying what’s right… No, sorry.”

Ludia, who was preparing for a secondary attack, widened her eyes when I apologized. Then, she laughed and went back to vacuuming. She seemed to be finishing up, but it seemed she had more to say.

“I keep thinking about it recently… I’ve gotten calmer now, and I’ve got the ease of mind to look back.”

“That’s… good.”

At first, she didn’t want to even move if I wasn’t around. Now, however, it was fine even if I wasn’t around her for several days, and she didn’t even look for me as she climbed the dungeon with Shuna all day. It was a true improvement. It’s been a month since she last crawled onto my bed as well.

“Like when I first met you, when we reunited… or when you killed Shina.”

“… Ludia.”

It was very rare for Ludia to talk about that incident. Before I noticed, the vacuum cleaner was turned off.

“It must have been because I was overwhelmed with so many emotions. I didn’t know what the emotions I was feeling were. At that time, I thought I was working for revenge… but it seems that wasn’t it.”

“It wasn’t?”

“… I imagined myself on the other side. What I would have done if it was you who died, not Shina. Then, the answer was simple.”

Ludia returned the vacuum cleaner where it belonged. It seemed we were the only ones in the house as it was completely silent.

“How I behaved back then… must have been a desperate evasion.”

I felt like I understood. Seeing her sorrow expression, that was the only thing I could do.

“I was relieved that you didn’t die. Even when my younger sister died… I was relieved that it was Shina who died, not you. If it was the other way around, I would have killed Shina with my own hands, regardless of whether she was the Demon Lord’s spy or not.”

“Ludia, you can stop there.’

“I couldn’t forgive myself for how I felt back then. I didn’t want to admit it. That’s why. Even though the answer was so simple…”

She sighed and continued.

“Shin, back then… No, maybe even before, I must have been in love with you. You must have been more important to me than anything else.”

“Uk…”

As I had just experienced a potentially catastrophic incident that stemmed from love, Ludia’s confession didn’t feel so light. While I was hesitating to say anything, Ludia made a ligh smile.

“I don’t need a reply. I already know you don’t love me back.”

“Ludia…”

“I said I don’t need a reply. Do you need to reject me thoroughly to be satisfied?”

Ah, her usual way of talking was back. Seeing her frown, I swallowed my words.

“So the promise is null. It was just me being stubborn anyways, you don’t need to take responsibility for me forever.”

“But—”

“I said don’t reply, you orc.”

Ludia’s hand slapped my arm. Then, she gently held my arm. A smile had returned to her face.

“You can stay just the way you are. I’ll love you on my own and chase you on my own.”

“It’ll be painful for you.”

“It won’t be, stupid. Being able to stay with someone you love is a blessing in itself… Even if that person is in love with someone else.”

She let go of my arm, then put her hands on my shoulders. She fixed her sapphire-like blue eyes onto me and spoke as if to engrave her words on my mind.

“I don’t plan on ever letting go of this love. It might be burdensome and awkward, but just let me be. Being loved by a persistent girl like me is your misfortune, so… continue taking care of me from now.”

I had the feeling things would be exactly like how she described it. That I would be with her forever. I had no way of distancing myself away from her. Could Loretta do it? No, I was certain Loretta couldn’t, and neither could Hwaya, Ye-Eun, or anyone else.

The day I came to know my love, I obtained a life-long ally and a lovable burden that would follow me eternally.


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27 thoughts on “ICDS: Chapter 241” - NO SPOILERS and NO CURSING

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  2. Ludia’s being extremely selfish here; rather than thinking about what would be best for Shin, she’s thinking solely for herself. I suppose this is why she’s referred to as a lovable ‘burden’. Still, I am unable to dislike this choice of hers. She too has the right to fight for her own happy ending.

    1. I don’t know I think this is the best possible outcome she can come up with. She knows he doesn’t love her back and also realizes she is unable to give him up. So instead of pressuring him into taking care of her or lying to herself. She accepted her feelings for him and released him from the burden of guilt he would feel for loving someone else while knowing how she feels.

      Honestly this is probably one of the nicest ways this unrequited love could end for everyone. Especially given her situation. I feel like her decision is especially important because Shin is already carrying the burden of having killed her sister and being unable to save her parents or world.

      1. “this is probably one of the nicest ways this unrequited love could end for everyone” <= you mean, besides accepting that it's unrequited and moving on?

        I don't consider this a good thing, she's basically made responsible for her happiness without his agreement. It's bound to make him feel guilty for the rest of his life… not cool

    2. Thinking exclusively of someone else, to the detriment of yourself, is not healthy. You need to be thinking of yourself just as much as you are thinking of the person you love. A healthy relationship has two people working for the betterment of the unit, not just working for the betterment of the other person. You should be thinking about what’s good for yourself AND your partner at the same time.

      But then, Ludia and Shin aren’t partners, so Ludia is under no obligation to do what’s best for Shin. She needs to do what’s good for herself, and try to do so in a way that is also good for those around her (including Shin). In that case, she’s still probably not making the best decision. Feelings are hard to get over, though.

  3. what’s with the ‘I love you Loretta’ then right after saying that Ludia is his love…
    this is why i dislike harem MC, they never can get their priority straight. If it’s harem MC like in EER where they have the balls to turn down the girls chasing them *though it never stop the girl* and MC that are trying to create a harem where the girl know what the MC is doing but still fallow him anyway, then I am ok with them.
    But never like MC like this guy who is so indecisive that he makes even bad guys look good, I mean at least bad guys know what to do.

    1. What i understand is that the day he como to know Loretta was his love he also gain an ally and the lovable burden that is Lucía, so he is not indecisive he is remarking that he loves Loretta, because he only sleep 15 hours an a day has 24 so it was in the same day. But this was what i understand i do not know if in correct

    2. I think you might of misread that last sentence.

      “The day I came to know my love, I obtained a life-long ally and a lovable burden that would follow me eternally.”

      The ‘my love’ is not the same as the ‘lovable burden’. Loretta is the ‘my love’ while Ludia is the ‘lovable burden’. Shin cares about all of the girls but he loves Loretta. He realizes he will continue to look after Ludia forever more because he truly cares about her, and he feels a decent amount of responsibility to her especially after killing her sister.

      Honestly the author has made it so that all the Girls have some pretty legitimate reasons to love Shin and clearly defined personalities. Something I find refreshing in this story in particular is it isn’t shin who is pursuing the girls but the girls pursuing him.

      The author also clearly stated in a previous chapter why Shin hadn’t really decided on a girl and why he keeps turning down all their advances. Shin at one point flat out says that he finds them all very attractive and has no idea why any of them would like him, but he really needs to save the world first and so can’t have a relationship or figure out who he truly loves. Considering the harsh deadline he was also given around that time and the burdens of being a hero it makes perfect sense for him to not have time to mull it over.

      His feelings of inadequacy also make a ton of sense because Shin Spent his entire Youth looking like a body builder on steroids. The self image from that time has been pretty ingrained into him and it will take more than some increase in charm and int to have him overcome that childhood trauma. Add in the fact that he spent most of his time grinding in the Dungeon and not interacting with Youth’s his age at all. We can kind of understand where Shin’s coming from.

    3. pretty sure Shin straight up rejected her but Ludia said dont say anything and that she will follow him regardless. Not shins fault. in fact hes one of the most decisive harem mcs ive read about haha

      1. Agreed. For a start, he didn’t just let all girls blindly follow him but actually went through the trouble of rejecting each and everyone of them because he wanted to be single (for now). They are the ones who keep on hitting on him during his voluntary celibacy.

        Then he chooses Loretta, and Ludia says “I don’t care” and decides she’s okay with unrequited love, without caring about him rejecting her.

  4. I don’t get why Daisy want to sleep with him so much… Even if from her point of view he is “pure” (He don’t think about that all time…) she don’t want that either since she said it’s disgusting and don’t even understand why they would do it when they can’t reproduct… So why wanna sleep so much with him ? Even for a waifu material/Forever trustable ally that doesn’t make since, is it ?

    And one other thing that burden me… At the chapter when Yua first met Ye eun, Shin said to her to not trust any man, so that it’s ok.. He’s right, but next he said(for himself) that he was a teenager too and knew very well what they thought… But .. That’s impossible ! At first Shin was a NoBrain guy with only a spear, he became a little teenager after that but staying Brainless and spear guy. After his head was full of the Dungeon, so that’s never mention nor implied when he was in his younger stage.. (Of course now since all the women attack him now it’s pretty obvious that they forced him to think of that, but that doesn’t concern his teenage period)

  5. I hope she sticks to this and doesnt act all in his face now because Loretta is the only one after all she was broken from waiting on someone she loved before and now that she finally has shin I don’t want her to have her heart broken again

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